Out with the old and in with the new!

     Well it is new years eve and I can't believe everything that I have accomplished within a year. This day last year I was on a plane for the first time, little did I know I would become a pro. I am so proud of myself that I have stuck with school through all the changes that my life has taken. Chase and I have learned how strong our relationship can be. We survived a break in and a car accident with an insurance company that did not want to cooperate. I know we still have a lot of head of us, but I believe that we have made a pretty good start. Chase has always been there for me, especially with family. I have been upset that I wasn't able to come home when Uncle Bobby was hit and when Nicole had Clara. I randomly got upset the other night and cried because I missed it.
    I have some rants for the end of the new year. Just because I am married does not mean I am boring. I am so sick of people judging me and my life. Is their life that boring that they need to pity me. I have never liked to go to bars and waste my money on beer or at clubs. Just because I would rather spend time with my family does not mean there is anything wrong with me. What some people do not understand is that friends are just friends your family will always be there. I have a few close friends who understand me and that is all I need. I have learned this the hard way when I left when it came to friends. I am not a partier, I feel like there is more to life. If that is how you are then fine but leave me out of it is all I ask, and don't make smart comments about me, if you don't like it then don't be my friend.


My New Years Resolution: Stop caring so much about what other people think. I am who I am and I am happy with that.

Getting ready for the new year!

I can't believe that I am already back in Texas! That weekend home went way to fast :( Although it went to fast I still had a great time. The night we got in, we went to my uncle Keith and aunt Sue's country club and ate dinner which was nice. The next day we went shopping all day for the Christmas party that night, I got to see Zach for only like a half an hour but it was better then nothing. Mr Terri came over with his sax and played Christmas carols and all the kids sang, it really felt like Christmas then. On Christmas day I watched Robert open his gifts and then me and Chase opened ours. We got this really cool speaker that the Iphone goes on or it can hook up to the tv. I go a orioles mug that was nice that I don't even want to use lol just have it sit out. Chase on the other hand got a Bengals hat that he hasn't taken off. Kim and Chloe came over which made my day that she came down. She got me this beautiful best friends engraved crystal that sits on a light. I was so surprised but I loved it. Chloe and Chase played the whole time. We all went outside and threw the football around even Chloe. That was fun until it started to hurt everyones hands. Caitlin and Kim came in with Aunt Candy which is always fun. I talked to Caitlin about school and how she is almost done which is great. She'll do good at anything she does. I talked to Kim for awhile about school and relationships, I'm glad that she is moving on even though it is a lot tougher then people say. I'm so proud of her. That night we went over my brothers house to see them. I was so excited to see the kids I was scared they may have forgotten about me. As usual I was wrong Nick was showing me everything he got running around all excited. Brady and Evan looked really focused on opening gifts, it was so cute. Emily has gotten so big I didn't recognize her, she doesn't look like a little kid anymore! I got some really cute pictures of all the kids that I am uploading as I type. I just wish my new niece would have made an appearance but I know she will come when she is ready or when the doctors have to tell her she is ready lol Can't wait to get back in a couple of months and see everyone more. Merry Christmas and happy new year!

Almost Christmas

Wow I haven't wrote since October! Things have been super busy, but I am going to take this time to catch up. My parents came down in November with my little cousin Robert for Thanksgiving, and it was an absolute blast, I loved seeing them. It was nice to see Robert in a different light, and doing so well. We went to Fort Worth and saw the bull run. It was really exciting to be able to spend my Thanksgiving with Chase and my parents could get to see him in his own environment. 

My semester just ended last week, thank the lord! It was a struggle but I ended up with two A's and a B so I was happy. I want to become a teacher, so once again I am changing my major. Hopefully this will be the last time, but who knows. I know that I only need three classes to finish my AA so that is what I am going for now. I have to stay at CTC because my FAFSA form has the Texas address on it, so they are going to charge me 13,800 to attend out of state which sucks but it happens. 

Oh yeah we have a new addition to the family, his name is Zeke. We think he is around 8 to 10 months old. We saw him in petco and couldn't resist. We have wanted a dog for a long time, and we seemed to click with him right away so now he is with us. We are having a little trouble keeping him off the bed but he is learning. He also does a lot better then Heidi does when we leave, which makes me really happy. He's a mama's boy, which I am okay with sometimes but it can be annoying.

I got my wisdom teeth out three days ago, and I am doing considerably well. I haven't had that much pain, I just think that I look like a chipmunk! Chase has been the best caretaker ever, he has been so sweet and understanding, I couldn't ask for more. Can't wait to go home and eat some home made Christmas dinner!

We go home next week and it is going to be a great trip I just know it! We have already found a nice place to hold Zeke for the week, I really feel comfortable about leaving him with them. They are actually going to evaluate him and see if he needs puppy classes. Although they want an arm and leg for the classes but we are going to try and work something out. I can't wait to see my mom and dad, I miss them so much. I have adjusted to being on my own with just Chase but it will be so nice to my family.

We are going to live in Ohio when Chase is out of the Army. We have really looked around into both places and it seems like Ohio will be the best option for us. This way he already has a job and his mom said that she could get me a job at a daycare so I can get my foot in the door with the teaching. This way I can see if I really like it or not. I am going to make a huge effort to make it home at least a weekend a month or a week. I just don't want to have to stay there long because I don't want it to affect our relationship. I think if we stay there about a month then we will be okay. One of big challenges is going to find a place to fit all our stuff lol but I am excited to start again. I am tired of this temporary feeling but I know it is going to feel like this until we get our own place.

Well we are going to go look at the lights and enjoy the last day of the weekend. This time it won't take me two months to write again! Merry Early Christmas!!<3

It's October!

     Everything has been so hectic lately especially with school. Accounting has been kicking my ass. I have also been working for the club at school called SIFE. It stands for students in free enterprise, I like it and it's always a plus that we get a 100 points extra credit if we do it. I have never been this involved in school before. I like it because I get to interact with people that I normally wouldn't. Chase has been working on getting promoted but of course they are making him jump through hoops, they said he has to go to the soldier of the month board first. I really do hope this happens for him because he really deserves it but most importantly it would look really good a resume for when he gets out.

      Flashback, I will never forget when I was getting ready to go to my first day of high school and my brother looked at me and he said it will fly by. I looked at him like oh yeah right, four years couldn't possibly fly by. Well sad to say he was right. I have almost been out of high school for four years. Not just that even though I have dreaded this time in Texas, we are almost done. It is already October, pretty soon we are going to be looking back at our time in Texas like I am looking back on my time in high school. Most of all I can't believe that my nephews are so big, I can't wait to see them, and my new niece, Clara. Emily doesn't even look like a little kid anymore, she looks like a young lady!

     Chase has been looking into different job opportunties since it is getting around that time. Orginally we really wanted to find something in Maryland, but now that may have changed. There were some jobs at Fort Meade and in DC he could have, but not much that he was interested in. The ones in DC were good but we both don't want to want to live there. I mean we could live in Maryland and commute so we have considered that. When we looked more into it, the most paying jobs are in Arlington Virginia. As of right now that is our best option, it is only an hour and 15 minutes away. Really the only reason I wanted to stay in Maryland was because of the business and of course my family. I can commute to work a couple days of week and still go to school. I know commuting may get old but the goal is to be able to open another Soft Touch. As of right now we don't know anything, Chase's aunt works for the government kind of doing the same thing Chase does and she said she would take him in a second. Her family has lived all over, so that is def something to consider. Who knows where we will end up.

       Well I am extremely hungry and have a lot of homework to get done this weekend. I should probably do it instead of being on my new computer! Oh yeah with the money I got for school, they sent me a check with the money I didn't use and I bought a macbook pro. I think it was a good buy because I can put photoshop on it to work for my mom and it can't get viruses like my other computer. Apparently my other computer has a virus that is going to cost 200 dollars or more to get fixed. This is after I bought virus protection, yeah I know why buy it if viruses can get through? That's why I decided to go the mac root because they don't get infected so easily. Ugh well the cable just came back on, and Chase is complaining to them because it has been out twice in the last week, let me feed him before he blows up.

     

PMSING AND FED UP!

So I have been keeping my feelings inside and lately they need to come out, I usually hate when people talk like this but since nobody sees this, it's okay lol

      

        Let's see for all the people that have doubted me and chase and how I would do in Texas, keeping wishing. Even if you may have not said it out loud, believe me we aren't stupid. As for the so called friends I "had" when I was home, well you can keep your sad friendship, it means nothing to me. I have no desire to come back other then my family, and the business. Really if it wasn't for the business, I would visit occasionally but I wouldn't live there again. It's funny you can bash me and my life but really you were wishing it was yours, sorry but you won't ever be that lucky. I have accomplished so much, it's hard to see the end in site. So please keep doubting me or better yet my marriage because that is one bet you will never win! In the words of my husband "have a good day."

Busy Busy Busy

I am now currently in school and now am thinking why I was so desperately wanting to be in such a place.  Ok ok ok it's not that bad, but it is a lot. I have never read so much in my life. I know they say it is in your "best" interest but that is like saying you shouldn't pee in the pool. Yes that was a bad comparison but that is the only thing I could come up with at 11:27 at night. I am learning a lot and am really looking forward to applying what I learned to the business. It's funny when I was home and knew a good majority of people that went to Essex, I did nothing but go to school and come home. Since I am in Texas I am going to school and joined a national club called SIFE which stands for Student in Free Enterprise. I have been going to the meetings the past two weeks and I wasn't sure if I liked it but I got a little push when my teacher said he would give 100 points to your final grade. I volunteered to help at the help center lol ironic I know but it is for a good cause. The help center is where people go and get help with their bills for the month if they get in a tight spot. Where we come in is we teach them how to manage their money, and budget so they won't have to come back every month. I am going to be going to school on Tuesday's and Thursday's and helping out on Wednesday's. The downside is that I am not feeling so confident in accounting, it just takes awhile for it to click, but I am going to work hard and possibly pass. As a release since I have been studying so much we went to the movies tonight. I really wanted to see Easy A. It was very good beside the annoying people next to me but I am not going to rant, I have done enough of that tonight. Although the night started out kind of shakey it ended nicely with my husband and I spending a fun filled night together singing and acting like we were 12. Sometimes it is nice to just let loose and be care free. That is my new leave that I am starting. :)

Review

      My financial aid went through and it even paid for my books! My books came to six hundred dollars, I can't believe that. My books cost as much as my four classes. I am hoping that I get a check with the rest of the money so I can buy the laptop that I want. Idealy, I would like a mac so I can use it to edit pictures for my mom's photography business. I am just excited that I am finally in school. I am really nervous to be starting a new school in a brand new state, but who knows maybe it will open me up more and make me more out going. I have not checked out my teachers like I have in the past. The reason being I don't want to get psyched out, I already know that they are going to be hard and I don't need to add to it. I did get two emails from my teachers and the one sounded really nice and the other sounded like a hard ass. Although it could just be that she trying to prepare us so we don't feel lost, but it is my accounting class and I am bad at math. I can't wait until I just get started, so I can get rid of this anxious feeling.
       I went to the doctors again for my stomach, and saw a different doctor and she gave me yet again a new medicine. It kind of irritates me, that as soon as I tell them my issue they automatically say that I have IBS without testing me for anything else. This doctor gave me a medicine for heartburn, but I heard it really works. I guess I will find out since I start taking it tomorrow. I just want what anybody else wants and that is to feel better. Although lately I have been getting headaches and peeing a lot. Chase thinks that I could be dehydrated. I have been trying to drink more water to try and make it better. If it doesn't start getting better, I am going to go to the doctors again, I don't care if they keep getting on their nerves. I am going to take advantage of this free health care while we still have it.
       I am starting to feel dizzy and light headed so I am going to call it a night. I will write again probably after my first class on Tuesday. Hoping it goes well, keeping my fingers crossed!