Life's an Adventure

Out with the old and in with the new!

2010-12-31T18:49:00.000-06:00

Well it is new years eve and I can't believe everything that I have accomplished within a year. This day last year I was on a plane for the first time, little did I know I would become a pro. I am so proud of myself that I have stuck with school through all the changes that my life has taken. Chase and I have learned how strong our relationship can be. We survived a break in and a car accident with an insurance company that did not want to cooperate. I know we still have a lot of head of us, but I believe that we have made a pretty good start. Chase has always been there for me, especially with family. I have been upset that I wasn't able to come home when Uncle Bobby was hit and when Nicole had Clara. I randomly got upset the other night and cried because I missed it.
I have some rants for the end of the new year. Just because I am married does not mean I am boring. I am so sick of people judging me and my life. Is their life that boring that they need to pity me. I have never liked to go to bars and waste my money on beer or at clubs. Just because I would rather spend time with my family does not mean there is anything wrong with me. What some people do not understand is that friends are just friends your family will always be there. I have a few close friends who understand me and that is all I need. I have learned this the hard way when I left when it came to friends. I am not a partier, I feel like there is more to life. If that is how you are then fine but leave me out of it is all I ask, and don't make smart comments about me, if you don't like it then don't be my friend.

My New Years Resolution: Stop caring so much about what other people think. I am who I am and I am happy with that.

Getting ready for the new year!

2010-12-27T09:37:00.000-06:00

I can't believe that I am already back in Texas! That weekend home went way to fast :( Although it went to fast I still had a great time. The night we got in, we went to my uncle Keith and aunt Sue's country club and ate dinner which was nice. The next day we went shopping all day for the Christmas party that night, I got to see Zach for only like a half an hour but it was better then nothing. Mr Terri came over with his sax and played Christmas carols and all the kids sang, it really felt like Christmas then. On Christmas day I watched Robert open his gifts and then me and Chase opened ours. We got this really cool speaker that the Iphone goes on or it can hook up to the tv. I go a orioles mug that was nice that I don't even want to use lol just have it sit out. Chase on the other hand got a Bengals hat that he hasn't taken off. Kim and Chloe came over which made my day that she came down. She got me this beautiful best friends engraved crystal that sits on a light. I was so surprised but I loved it. Chloe and Chase played the whole time. We all went outside and threw the football around even Chloe. That was fun until it started to hurt everyones hands. Caitlin and Kim came in with Aunt Candy which is always fun. I talked to Caitlin about school and how she is almost done which is great. She'll do good at anything she does. I talked to Kim for awhile about school and relationships, I'm glad that she is moving on even though it is a lot tougher then people say. I'm so proud of her. That night we went over my brothers house to see them. I was so excited to see the kids I was scared they may have forgotten about me. As usual I was wrong Nick was showing me everything he got running around all excited. Brady and Evan looked really focused on opening gifts, it was so cute. Emily has gotten so big I didn't recognize her, she doesn't look like a little kid anymore! I got some really cute pictures of all the kids that I am uploading as I type. I just wish my new niece would have made an appearance but I know she will come when she is ready or when the doctors have to tell her she is ready lol Can't wait to get back in a couple of months and see everyone more. Merry Christmas and happy new year!

Almost Christmas

2010-12-19T17:17:00.000-06:00

Wow I haven't wrote since October! Things have been super busy, but I am going to take this time to catch up. My parents came down in November with my little cousin Robert for Thanksgiving, and it was an absolute blast, I loved seeing them. It was nice to see Robert in a different light, and doing so well. We went to Fort Worth and saw the bull run. It was really exciting to be able to spend my Thanksgiving with Chase and my parents could get to see him in his own environment.

My semester just ended last week, thank the lord! It was a struggle but I ended up with two A's and a B so I was happy. I want to become a teacher, so once again I am changing my major. Hopefully this will be the last time, but who knows. I know that I only need three classes to finish my AA so that is what I am going for now. I have to stay at CTC because my FAFSA form has the Texas address on it, so they are going to charge me 13,800 to attend out of state which sucks but it happens.

Oh yeah we have a new addition to the family, his name is Zeke. We think he is around 8 to 10 months old. We saw him in petco and couldn't resist. We have wanted a dog for a long time, and we seemed to click with him right away so now he is with us. We are having a little trouble keeping him off the bed but he is learning. He also does a lot better then Heidi does when we leave, which makes me really happy. He's a mama's boy, which I am okay with sometimes but it can be annoying.

I got my wisdom teeth out three days ago, and I am doing considerably well. I haven't had that much pain, I just think that I look like a chipmunk! Chase has been the best caretaker ever, he has been so sweet and understanding, I couldn't ask for more. Can't wait to go home and eat some home made Christmas dinner!

We go home next week and it is going to be a great trip I just know it! We have already found a nice place to hold Zeke for the week, I really feel comfortable about leaving him with them. They are actually going to evaluate him and see if he needs puppy classes. Although they want an arm and leg for the classes but we are going to try and work something out. I can't wait to see my mom and dad, I miss them so much. I have adjusted to being on my own with just Chase but it will be so nice to my family.

We are going to live in Ohio when Chase is out of the Army. We have really looked around into both places and it seems like Ohio will be the best option for us. This way he already has a job and his mom said that she could get me a job at a daycare so I can get my foot in the door with the teaching. This way I can see if I really like it or not. I am going to make a huge effort to make it home at least a weekend a month or a week. I just don't want to have to stay there long because I don't want it to affect our relationship. I think if we stay there about a month then we will be okay. One of big challenges is going to find a place to fit all our stuff lol but I am excited to start again. I am tired of this temporary feeling but I know it is going to feel like this until we get our own place.

Well we are going to go look at the lights and enjoy the last day of the weekend. This time it won't take me two months to write again! Merry Early Christmas!!<3

It's October!

2010-10-09T09:48:00.000-05:00

Everything has been so hectic lately especially with school. Accounting has been kicking my ass. I have also been working for the club at school called SIFE. It stands for students in free enterprise, I like it and it's always a plus that we get a 100 points extra credit if we do it. I have never been this involved in school before. I like it because I get to interact with people that I normally wouldn't. Chase has been working on getting promoted but of course they are making him jump through hoops, they said he has to go to the soldier of the month board first. I really do hope this happens for him because he really deserves it but most importantly it would look really good a resume for when he gets out.

Flashback, I will never forget when I was getting ready to go to my first day of high school and my brother looked at me and he said it will fly by. I looked at him like oh yeah right, four years couldn't possibly fly by. Well sad to say he was right. I have almost been out of high school for four years. Not just that even though I have dreaded this time in Texas, we are almost done. It is already October, pretty soon we are going to be looking back at our time in Texas like I am looking back on my time in high school. Most of all I can't believe that my nephews are so big, I can't wait to see them, and my new niece, Clara. Emily doesn't even look like a little kid anymore, she looks like a young lady!

Chase has been looking into different job opportunties since it is getting around that time. Orginally we really wanted to find something in Maryland, but now that may have changed. There were some jobs at Fort Meade and in DC he could have, but not much that he was interested in. The ones in DC were good but we both don't want to want to live there. I mean we could live in Maryland and commute so we have considered that. When we looked more into it, the most paying jobs are in Arlington Virginia. As of right now that is our best option, it is only an hour and 15 minutes away. Really the only reason I wanted to stay in Maryland was because of the business and of course my family. I can commute to work a couple days of week and still go to school. I know commuting may get old but the goal is to be able to open another Soft Touch. As of right now we don't know anything, Chase's aunt works for the government kind of doing the same thing Chase does and she said she would take him in a second. Her family has lived all over, so that is def something to consider. Who knows where we will end up.

Well I am extremely hungry and have a lot of homework to get done this weekend. I should probably do it instead of being on my new computer! Oh yeah with the money I got for school, they sent me a check with the money I didn't use and I bought a macbook pro. I think it was a good buy because I can put photoshop on it to work for my mom and it can't get viruses like my other computer. Apparently my other computer has a virus that is going to cost 200 dollars or more to get fixed. This is after I bought virus protection, yeah I know why buy it if viruses can get through? That's why I decided to go the mac root because they don't get infected so easily. Ugh well the cable just came back on, and Chase is complaining to them because it has been out twice in the last week, let me feed him before he blows up.

PMSING AND FED UP!

2010-09-24T16:55:00.000-05:00

So I have been keeping my feelings inside and lately they need to come out, I usually hate when people talk like this but since nobody sees this, it's okay lol

Let's see for all the people that have doubted me and chase and how I would do in Texas, keeping wishing. Even if you may have not said it out loud, believe me we aren't stupid. As for the so called friends I "had" when I was home, well you can keep your sad friendship, it means nothing to me. I have no desire to come back other then my family, and the business. Really if it wasn't for the business, I would visit occasionally but I wouldn't live there again. It's funny you can bash me and my life but really you were wishing it was yours, sorry but you won't ever be that lucky. I have accomplished so much, it's hard to see the end in site. So please keep doubting me or better yet my marriage because that is one bet you will never win! In the words of my husband "have a good day."

Busy Busy Busy

2010-09-17T23:33:00.000-05:00

I am now currently in school and now am thinking why I was so desperately wanting to be in such a place. Ok ok ok it's not that bad, but it is a lot. I have never read so much in my life. I know they say it is in your "best" interest but that is like saying you shouldn't pee in the pool. Yes that was a bad comparison but that is the only thing I could come up with at 11:27 at night. I am learning a lot and am really looking forward to applying what I learned to the business. It's funny when I was home and knew a good majority of people that went to Essex, I did nothing but go to school and come home. Since I am in Texas I am going to school and joined a national club called SIFE which stands for Student in Free Enterprise. I have been going to the meetings the past two weeks and I wasn't sure if I liked it but I got a little push when my teacher said he would give 100 points to your final grade. I volunteered to help at the help center lol ironic I know but it is for a good cause. The help center is where people go and get help with their bills for the month if they get in a tight spot. Where we come in is we teach them how to manage their money, and budget so they won't have to come back every month. I am going to be going to school on Tuesday's and Thursday's and helping out on Wednesday's. The downside is that I am not feeling so confident in accounting, it just takes awhile for it to click, but I am going to work hard and possibly pass. As a release since I have been studying so much we went to the movies tonight. I really wanted to see Easy A. It was very good beside the annoying people next to me but I am not going to rant, I have done enough of that tonight. Although the night started out kind of shakey it ended nicely with my husband and I spending a fun filled night together singing and acting like we were 12. Sometimes it is nice to just let loose and be care free. That is my new leave that I am starting. :)

Review

2010-08-26T23:44:00.000-05:00

      My financial aid went through and it even paid for my books! My books came to six hundred dollars, I can't believe that. My books cost as much as my four classes. I am hoping that I get a check with the rest of the money so I can buy the laptop that I want. Idealy, I would like a mac so I can use it to edit pictures for my mom's photography business. I am just excited that I am finally in school. I am really nervous to be starting a new school in a brand new state, but who knows maybe it will open me up more and make me more out going. I have not checked out my teachers like I have in the past. The reason being I don't want to get psyched out, I already know that they are going to be hard and I don't need to add to it. I did get two emails from my teachers and the one sounded really nice and the other sounded like a hard ass. Although it could just be that she trying to prepare us so we don't feel lost, but it is my accounting class and I am bad at math. I can't wait until I just get started, so I can get rid of this anxious feeling.
       I went to the doctors again for my stomach, and saw a different doctor and she gave me yet again a new medicine. It kind of irritates me, that as soon as I tell them my issue they automatically say that I have IBS without testing me for anything else. This doctor gave me a medicine for heartburn, but I heard it really works. I guess I will find out since I start taking it tomorrow. I just want what anybody else wants and that is to feel better. Although lately I have been getting headaches and peeing a lot. Chase thinks that I could be dehydrated. I have been trying to drink more water to try and make it better. If it doesn't start getting better, I am going to go to the doctors again, I don't care if they keep getting on their nerves. I am going to take advantage of this free health care while we still have it.
       I am starting to feel dizzy and light headed so I am going to call it a night. I will write again probably after my first class on Tuesday. Hoping it goes well, keeping my fingers crossed!

One day at a time

2010-08-22T22:48:00.000-05:00

I have been neglecting this. Not that anyone really follows me anyway but it makes me feel better to write, it is my cheap therapy. My mom came down and we had an absolutely amazing week. It was so nice to see her, it was like a piece of home was in Texas with me. She is my best friend, it felt like I had never left. I was really sad to see her go but now I can look forward to her and my dad coming back for Thanksgiving. We aren't going to be able to make it home for Christmas because the flights are really expensive. That's okay though soon after Christmas Chase and I will be making plans to go home for good. Speaking of going home I am really nervous about it. It seems like some of my friends have forgotten me. It would just be nice to know that they are occassionally thinking of me. Instead they feel the need to text me and tell me about them. I love to hear about other people but it would be nice to be recongized once in awhile. I know I can't dwell on it because I don't know where they are going to be in their lives when I get back but it is still nerve racking.

On a brighter note there are a few things that I am excited about. I start school in a week. I checked out the campus today and it is amazing! I have to go tomorrow and make sure my financial aid is going to pay for it, I am keeping my fingers crossed that nothing goes wrong. Another thing is that my baby niece clara is going to be born soon in December. I got to watch the gender reveal on the webcam, wish I was there. can't wait to see my older niece and my nephews when I get back they are getting so big so fast! I also went shopping today. If you know me, you know I don't like to shop because I hate my body. It doesn't matter what other people tell me. It only matters how I see myself. This has been a forever battle with myself. I have decided that I have enough on my plate then to worry about what I look like 24/7. As long as we eat right and I exercise a couple times a week, I should be less hard on myself. So I bought two pairs of jeans and two polos. It was hard to see the sizes that I was wearing but life isn't about a number it is about living and I am going to take full advantage of it!

Back to something serious, my uncle is on life support. He was hit by a car they are assuming it is a hit and run. I don't know why someone was just walk away from that. Although he is showing some signs of improvement, but he does have brain damage. I am so hopeful for him and hope he knows that he has people around him that love him dearly.

Lesson of the week: Relax and take one day at a time. That shouldn't just be the lesson of the week it should be my motto. I am slowly learning how to do this and not worry about everything and everyone that is around me and not around me.

Problem Week

2010-08-05T13:51:00.000-05:00

In my last post I was talking about how we were going to move back into the apartment that I was living in before I left to come to Texas. As most things that has changed, we are not going to live there. My parents have decided that they are going to rent it out due to some recent things that have happened. I am okay with it, we are going to look into some places into the county. It is scary in a way because we are starting over again. One good thing is that we have some things to start out with. I am a little worried about money, but then again who isn't. They are starting to get all Chase's certifications together and start his resume. I am so excited to get back and get involved with the business but I will be working a lot more then I am getting paid because it will basically like an internship learning how to run the business. Running a small business can be very unstable so that is why it is so important that Chase has a good job so we aren't always worrying about money like we are now. I know we are doing better then others but I want to do better for us. It is very different for me to depend on someone else for money. I have always made my own money and I was the one that was offering it to people. I feel like I am being a baby.

So anyway I have been on this kick to get in shape, no matter what Chase says. I ordered p90x and was not happy with the first workout it was for your back, chest and neck. I really only want it for my stomach. I don't manly arms. It was expensive so we sent it back. My friend Steve said that he would send it to me for free if I wanted to re do it so currently I am waiting for that. I have tried stupid sit ups but I don't know if I am doing it wrong and pulling my neck and hurting my back. The only thing I have stuck to is this mini elliptical that I bought from walmart. But I am trying to eat better, have been living off of celery and peanut butter.

So I decided I wanted a new look so a new hair would do it. haha not exactly what I was aiming for. Let's just say my hair was black. If you know me then you know I am decently pale and black hair would only bring that out, well it did. Every time I saw myself I cried. I should be used to having hair diasters since they have been happening since I was little. That night I went to walmart and bought 2 boxes of extra blonde and used one box that night. The next morning I used the second one. My hair is almost a light brown.

Lesson Learned- See the good in a situation, and run with it.

Catching Up

2010-07-22T11:11:00.000-05:00

I know it has been awhile since I gotten on here. Last time I wrote I think I was saying that I had two weeks until I was home. Now I have been back for a week. Okay well let me recap about what has happened in a month.

I went home and it was great, I loved seeing everybody. I was also excited because that was me and chase's first fourth of July together. My friend Zach, cousin Thomas and my best friend Kim came down to go to fireworks with us. It was good a little tension at one point but it easily blew over. The next day I went to my sister in laws mom's house, she was altering my dress, for a fitting. Well when I tried it on, it was tight and I didn't like it anymore, it looked plain. So my amazing mom, said we could go shopping and look for a new one. My sister in law and her mom decided to come and help me too. I had a lot of fun with all of them, they really did make me feel a lot better. Mrs. Linda is great she even came over a couple days later to bustle it. So I had a dress but the mission was that I had to fit into it in a couple of days. I felt bad that I couldn't really see the friends that I wanted to see because everything was so hectic. Chase's parents came down and we all had so much fun. At first it was slow to be comfortable but within a few days we were all like a big happy family. The night before the wedding Chase and his dad went and spent the night over my Aunt's house since we weren't allowed to see each other. I really liked that I was able to spend time with tori and my mother in law. We got to talk and joke around. I really wish they lived closer so we didn't go so long to see them.

After the wedding, we all went to my new uncle's house to hang out and unwind. It was nice some of my friends came but a little weird at the same time. I still am getting to know this new part of my family and my friends came and all they wanted to do is drink. Now yes this part of the family does like to drink but I didn't think this was the time or the place for getting drunk. I didn't really say anything because I didn't want to be mean since I haven't seen them in awhile. I feel like I am past that stage, and I don't look down on people that do but I don't want to be apart of that anymore. I want to do so much more like get a house and have a family, I guess I will either have new friends or adjust. Can't really worry about it now, because who knows what people are going to be doing in seven months from now. At least that is what I try and tell myself.

Oh yeah while I was home I made every doctors appointment I could while I was there and I felt more comfortable since I knew them. I went to Peggy who is my gyn, which is awkward enough, but I went for my stomach issues I have been having. She sent me for tests to see if I still had a cyst that I had. Apparently it is still there but shrinking, I don't know how she knows that but that is what she said. I also went to my primary doctor also about my stomach and she said I had IBS which I am not sure I believe because she said that with two minutes of talking to me. She told me about some stuff over the counter to take, that I have yet to pick up. The last doctor I went to was my dermatologists to get checked because I haven't been checked in over a year. Last time I was checked they found that I had pre cancerous cells and that they would turn if I didn't get it taken care of. So of course like they always do when I go they found something. Since I am in Texas I am going to go to my primary doctor down here and just tell her all the problems I have been having.

So after everything we did when I was home, it was time to go back :( My mom and dad threw us the best wedding I could have every imagined, I will never forget. They took us to the airport and my mom started to cry, which made it more realize that I was really going back. Well I hate flying and on top of flying my stomach started to act up which made the trip that much better.

We got home, and Texas is not as bad as I try and make it seem. I love being here with the love of my life, the downfall is that I feel so useless. I don't have a car which isn't terrible because Chase is always more then willing to let me use it but I don't work and currently do not go to school. I am working on the school thing, I have filled out the FAFSA and am completely my financial aid and waiting on getting my transcripts from high school and previous college. So that is a start for me, I really do like school and like to learn, I really want to go back more now since my mom said I could take her business if I really worked hard. I don't know anybody really around her and sometimes that bothers me but I know this isn't permanent and that I will be going back to my real home in 7 months.

I am so proud of Chase and how he has handled everything, I know he is to hard on himself for being here and knowing that sometimes I miss home. He has recently got moved to a new department in his unit, and had to interview for it. I have no doubt that he is going to do great when he is out. I am so excited that I get to see him in action on Saturday in a parade. I know he doesn't think it is a big deal but I do and I am going to take pictures and possibly post them on facebook lol

Another exciting thing is that we have a couch, futon, and a REAL bed. We got curtains and pictures to put on the walls. Chase put the pictures up and I did the curtains. I um to say the least got a little frustrated hanging the curtains. Everything is up and together, we decided that we were going to only buy things that we could take back home with us. We are still doing laundry at the barracks so we are going to get a stackable washer and dryer to take back. My dad said we could move back into the apartment I was living in when I left so that is a load off my mind knowing that we will have a place to live when we get back. Oh hey well my mom is calling so I'll write back later in the week.

Counting Down

2010-06-16T15:00:00.000-05:00

Two weeks from today I will be on a plane to go home. I have been looking forward to this since I got here not that I just miss my family because I do but it is going to be closer to my wedding day. Everything is going pretty good here even though we don't have the jeep back, it is getting worked on and we are not paying for it. Driving on Fort Hood is extremely dangerous I mean I know first hand but there were just two accidents here before 12:00 now that is pretty bad.

Last Sunday we finally found a church that we liked. Chase liked it so much that he is even thinking about taking classes to get baptized which I think is great. We both signed up to volunteer for vacation bible school which starts in mid july. I think it is during the day so I am not sure if Chase is going to be able to do it or not but it was nice that he was willing to. Also when I get back I should be starting school soon which is really exciting for me since I have been staying at home everyday since we got here in February.

Although I have been learning to fill my time better with being more productive. I just finished my book that I thought was so good well it turned out that the ending kind of sucked. I have picking up new hobbies. I actually went to the library today to get another book to start, angels and demons. I think it will interesting since it is by the same guy that wrote the da vinci code.

Next week around this time, chase and I will be on a couples retreat with his unit. The Army is paying for everything, we just have to drive to Austin and why pass up free. Recently I joined a group on facebook for the Army Wives of Fort Hood, and they meet up every couple of days. I don't know why but I was turned off of this maybe because I know I am not going to be here very long or I think it is weird that people have been here for like six years and still do not have friends. I rather meet people by doing things like church or work or just going out. So I decided not to do it, I kinda of feel like I have been here for almost six months with just Chase why can't I go another six. But on the bright side maybe with this couple retreat I will be able to meet more of the people that Chase works with, so I can put names to faces.

I think I am going to go and read my book since the next thing on tv is wife swap and I hate that show. Then I get to pick up my love and possibly go to the movies or go to the pool.

Oh yeah TWO WEEKS BABY!!! WOO HOO

Hello Goodbye

2010-06-04T19:25:00.000-05:00

This week as gone by so fast. It was so nice seeing a familiar face around and best of all it was my cousin Kim. We did a lot in a week, mini golf, movies, went out to eat (too many times lol), swam in the lake, and went to the pool. We had our rough moments but everything turned out for the best. Sadly I have to take her to the airport tomorrow so she can go home but she said she definitely wants to come back down again. Another good thing is that my best friend Kim is saving her money so her and her daughter can come down to visit. I can not believe how fast time has gone and I thank God everyday for that. Once I take Kim tomorrow then we only have a few more weeks until I get to go home and see everyone and then the wedding! I can't wait, since it is getting closer I am getting more and more excited everyday.

Today's heat index was over 100 degrees it was extremely hot so me and Kim thought it would be a good idea to go to the pool they have on post. Well me being pale I put on sunscreen and Kim who has darken skin didn't. She ended up getting really burnt and I am just pink but it is still sore. I also discovered the new way to do a cannon ball, when you are in the air you grab one leg and keep the other one straight, apparently it makes a bigger splash. Really I think the fat guys won that one.

Well since it is Kim's last night here we are going to drink a little bit and and play Uno since she has lost every time we played. What a Friday Night!

New Light

2010-05-26T21:23:00.000-05:00

Chase called today and the other insurance company took the claim for the accident. I can't express how much better that made me feel. When Chase came home with the car I drove half way to Austin. I was scared I would have forgotten how to drive it has been over a month lol We talked to the mechanic and he said it could take awhile since it was the suspension that was messed up, but I am okay with it as long as we have a rental.

I am so looking forward to having Kim here, it will be nice to see a familiar face around and I think it will be good for her to get away. There isn't that much to do around here but I am sure we will find something. Chase's unit is giving free baseball tickets to the game on Memorial Day in Houston so that could be fun I have never been there before. There is also a comedy show that is next friday since I didn't get to go to the last one, should be fun.

Now the latest problem is that Chase is having problems with his Post GI Bill, he got a letter in the mail saying that he was denied because he wasn't in some program but once he is in it, I think he can use it. I don't know all this Army stuff really confuses me. He has done so well with everything and handled everything I am sure he will figure out what is going on with it.

The wedding is almost here and I am so excited! I am just scared that I am going to fall or something but my dad said that he will make sure I won't. I am most looking forward to just seeing everyone. You take for granted seeing family everyday until you don't. I def won't do that again. Oh best news of all, my mom called me and said my aunt might have a starter house for me and chase. I can't wait to get back and get started but I am really trying to enjoy my time down here while I am here.

Losing Hope

2010-05-25T14:25:00.000-05:00

Well this car thing is still a nightmare that seems like it will not end. We finally got the police report and faxed it to the other guys insurance company mind you that we did that on Friday and it is now Tuesday. We called today and they said that they sent it to their head quarters to be validated, and that they only use the police report as a tool. Since when does that not matter, I thought the whole point of having insurance was so they would supposedly have your back so to speak. Well Progressive wants nothing to do with us and that is who we pay each month. Tomorrow is the day of truth, the day they decide if they want to accept the claim or not. I just have a really bad feeling that they aren't going to accept it and decide that they do not want to pay for the car when it was clearly his fault. If they decide that they do not want to pay then once again I am putting my parents through hell because my dad said that he would pay for the car to get fixed and that is over a thousand dollars.

I can't stand the Army, supposedly they are a brotherhood who looks out their own. Well you know what I say to brotherhood, bullshit. They said they were involving jag and the high ups but I guarantee if Chase was an officer then this would have been done with three weeks ago. I just feel completely useless and helpless because the only people that are helping is my family and his.

We just have been through so much done here and I am not complaining but I just really hope that this works in our favor because we don't have that kind of money to just put into the car. We sold his computer just to have money to come back for the wedding. I know things happen for a reason and you are supposed to have faith which I do but it is very challenging right now. I guess what I am trying to do is expect the worst so if it happens then I won't be caught off guard. Please pray that things work out, I don't know what else to do.

Bad Luck but A bright side

2010-05-24T12:20:00.000-05:00

The thought was that friday we were going to pay for a rental car since everything is taking so long. Chase called enterprise while he was at work and they said it was going to be 97 dollars until monday and that they were going to pick him up from work. When they picked him up they said his card wasn't working which is impossible because we had like 200 dollars left his account ( since the Army screwed up his paycheck and paid him less then half). They decided to take him to an atm to get money out. He took out a 140 and went back to the company and they said it would be 300. Apparently what they neglected to tell us is there is a 200 dollar deposit that you get back after you turn the car back in. Well we didn't have that much so he was stranded at the place. He was so mad yelling at the guy that an old first sergeant heard him and yelled at them to for treating him this way and gave him a ride home which was really nice but still left us without a car. We were depending on that car to go out to the comedy show that a friend invited me to. I felt horrible because every time I have tried to do something with her something has come up and we were really looking forward to going to this. By the time all this happened the event already started. Chase's friend let us use his car and I was determined to do something because I have been trapped in the house for two weeks. So we went and saw shrek 3D which was good.

I really do not like Texas I am so ready to leave and go back home and do what I really want to do. My class that I signed up for back home, dropped me because lack of payment and I already brought the book which is annoying. Since this happened I was freaking out about what if I didn't finish my AA back home and started a degree here and wasn't able to finish it, I would have two degrees that were not done. I talked to chase about it and he told me that the college I applied to is for military so even if we move I will be able to finish it because it is set up for soldiers that deploy or get relocated. So that made me feel better. I applied last tuesday and it says it takes a week to two weeks to get an answer. I am freaking out I really want to get into the program, it would really benefit me.

As far as the car situation goes, the other guy is claiming it was not his fault even though the police report says it was. We finally got the official police report on friday and faxed it over to his insurance company and they said they have to verify it to see if it was real. Chase called the insurance commissioner and he was not helpful he was like oh well I will look into it. I am so tired of people saying they will look into but nothing ever comes from it. I really hope that all this is figured out this week. On the bright side I am excited that my cousin Kim is coming down. I am going to have to find stuff for us to do, I m just happy that she stuck to her word to come down. I feel like a lot of friends say that they will come down just because it is something they are supposed to say. Well I am going to go and figure out the bills for this month, ugh I dread it.

First Blog EVER

2010-05-21T12:32:00.001-05:00

I have never had one of these things before so I thought I would try it out.. As most people know I am currently living in Texas with my finance Chase and it has not been an easy road. I decided to just pick up and live here for a year. Which completely surprised me because I have never been away from home until now, I didn't even want to go away to school. I transfered the classes they would let me to online so I could finish them here and I did and got A's. I have really fallen behind in school and am not where I am supposed to but who cares life is an adventure. I just recently found out that the college here as a degree program that would be great to take to be able to take over my mom's business when I go home. That is my dream to eventually own my own business.

Texas has been a whole new experience and a lot of life lessons have come my way. Wasn't sure where I was going to live since my boyfriend at the time was a single soldier living in the barracks and I cannot live. He found the first thing he thought we could afford so I would have somewhere to stay. It was a duplex and not in the best neighborhood but he did what he could with the time he had. Our house got broken into and to follow that I got hit by a guy in the PX and have been without a car for two weeks when it wasn't even my fault.

What I have learned from all this is that I am truly in love with Chase and if we can get through all these challenges then married life can't be much harder. I have had a chance to really find out who my real friends were and who was still going to be there when I get back. One person I know I can always depend on is Chase and that is an amazing feeling. I have also had a chance to find out who I am and not have to worry about work, I really want to focus on my relationship and school.

Army life is not what I expected. Most couples have families and the ones that don't are always drinking on the weekends and I don't mind doing that once in awhile but would rather do something else. Aside from that even though I am not in the military I still have rules that I have to follow. Most of all the Army comes first before anything, which can be a tough adjustment at first but I have gotten used to it.. Oh yeah and rank matters, you can never just talk to somebody you have to make sure you are respectful even if they are in normal clothes because you don't know if when they put on uniform they could out rank you ad get you in trouble.

I have learned and been a lot while being down here and have only been here since February. I am excited to learn more and find out what is going to happen next, after all life is an adventure.